Why even bother

I want to experience a feeling so rare to me, it is scary. Drawing the line in the sand, stand with me or you are forever against me. This is no time to make small friends. Its do or die. How can I carrying on when I know you are waiting to watch me fall? When can I get to him? That man I love? Why can't just one male, one, love me? Have I done something wrong? No I dserve my life. I want a marriage with pride, predjuice, and may poles. I want to the honey moon where I am treated like a goddess. I want th ehouse filled with kids made with only us. that moment when you come home from a long journey and you pick me up and swing me around. I believe in love and I would always believe in you and me. Fuck this shit